SAD

I'm done.  Its been a long hard winter.  My mind and mood are tapped out.  I looked up the definition for SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) on Wikipedia.

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD), also known as winter depression, winter blues, summer depression, summer blues, orseasonal depression, was considered a mood disorder in which people who have normal mental health throughout most of the year experience depressive symptoms in the winter or summer.[1]

Ummm, yeah.  Although, how can someone have summer blues? (edited to add: They can… trust me. Jen Reviews lays it all out here.)

I had one of those days yesterday that wasn't bad but, I just totally felt guilty about how I was treating everyone because I know I was a total dud.  Way too hard on the kids and just not positive.  I was just looking forward to going to bed and starting a new day.  

I can't say this day is the full on rainbow that I was hoping for but, at least I'm trying to be nicer to the kids and those around me ::cough:: my husband ::cough::.  Although, I do question the fact that when I tell him I'm having a hard day, he hasn't learned - in the last 11 years - that maybe backing off would be a good thing for all??  

Anyway,  I NEED spring.  I need to feel some warmth on my face.  I need to be able to send the kids outside.  I need to open my windows to let the fresh air in….

SAD fo sho.